OK, so the crossed fingers did not work.
I have absolutely NO funding or scholarship for starting PhD work this forthcoming academic year.
Nothing. Niente. Nada. Not a bean.
And as I have self-funded my way through both my BA and MA, there is no way I can do it for a further three years (minimum). I am bitterly, bitterly disappointed - so disappointed that I daren't examine my thoughts too closely for fear of seeing the yawning chasm therein. I need a major brain-shift, a total reassessment, a new plan.
I shall survive: I don't know quite how yet........but I will get over it.